There are times when I really need You

God… my heart needs your healing. I am a broken man not knowing where to go. You put me through this season I do not know. I pray for forgiveness for any sin I have committed. My hope is in you! You carried me through this emotional phase and I’m ready to leap out of it. I’ve come to realize that you are all I need. Father I’ve missed you! I’ve missed the love I had with you, I just miss you! I pray that you keep me well and focused. Let me not fall!

update.

Let me just start off my saying, God is really awesome! These last few days have been good to me. Saturday night I got my second tattoo and had dinner with a friend. Buy the down side to that night was that I had to work forever! Ha, but anyways..on sunday I went to my old church because my dad was here! It was pretty great to see him and stuff. Then I had dinner again with a friend at panera and went to target. Which I’m glad we did. But life in general is beginning to look bright and up! Losing the body fat in a weird miraculous way, I just feel healthier really! I’m excited for my trip to Haiti in the winter. And excited that I get to see my friends from college! I just pray that God keeps me focused through it all!!

Chi Rho Tattoo

I finally got the tattoo I wanted!!

i wanna dance with somebody..

I just really like listening to song. Ben Rector is pretty good.

Proverbs 31 Woman

Hymn to a Good Wife

 ^10-31 A good woman is hard to find,
and worth far more than diamonds.
Her husband trusts her without reserve,
and never has reason to regret it.
Never spiteful, she treats him generously
all her life long.
She shops around for the best yarns and cottons,
and enjoys knitting and sewing.
She’s like a trading ship that sails to faraway places
and brings back exotic surprises.
She’s up before dawn, preparing breakfast
for her family and organizing her day.
She looks over a field and buys it,
then, with money she’s put aside, plants a garden.
First thing in the morning, she dresses for work,
rolls up her sleeves, eager to get started.
She senses the worth of her work,
is in no hurry to call it quits for the day.
She’s skilled in the crafts of home and hearth,
diligent in homemaking.
She’s quick to assist anyone in need,
reaches out to help the poor.
She doesn’t worry about her family when it snows;
their winter clothes are all mended and ready to wear.
She makes her own clothing,
and dresses in colorful linens and silks.
Her husband is greatly respected
when he deliberates with the city fathers.
She designs gowns and sells them,
brings the sweaters she knits to the dress shops.
Her clothes are well-made and elegant,
and she always faces tomorrow with a smile.
When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say,
and she always says it kindly.
She keeps an eye on everyone in her household,
and keeps them all busy and productive.
Her children respect and bless her;
her husband joins in with words of praise:
“Many women have done wonderful things,
but you’ve outclassed them all!”
Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades.
The woman to be admired and praised
is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.
Give her everything she deserves!
Festoon her life with praises!Proverbs 31:10-31
The Message (MSG)I want to be able to find a woman as described. Someone I can lead! I just got to know that it’s on God’s time. Girls will come and go, but if and when i do have myself a Proverbs 31 woman, I will lead her!

anyway…

lying.

I just want to vent something out..

I do not like being lied to at all. Being lied to when you know the truth hurts and it sucks. I do not see why people ( parents and friends and such) cannot just tell the truth. I honestly would rather hear the truth than some lie. Gees, people these days.

It’s gonna be wild, It’s gonna be great, It’s gonna be full of Me !

     Lately, life has been a bit of a roller coaster. Not one of those loopy ups and downs at every corner kind of roller coaster, just a kid’s version. Let me start off by saying I am grateful for everything God has blessed me with at this moment. No. 1 being this life I am living! I thank Him so much because I could have honestly died a month and a half ago. Luckily I was under His protection that night! No. 2 being my family and friends! I love them dearly, I really do. But lately I have been having a rough season. Some part of it was good and some was just…a lot to handle really. It’s not even half way through two months of 2012 and my family has been in and out of the hospital at least 12 times already. Its tough I tell you, waiting in that ER to know if your kin is okay or not. Yet I still have hope that He will pull through for me, and He eventually does. I quit my recent job at the cell phone store, which was a good decision because the environment wasn’t what I needed. I am blessed to have got another job so quickly, but I know this will test me too. I am honestly not looking forward to 12 hours of work for 6 days a week. But I can manage!
Besides the family and work, my person self being (if you even want to call it that) has been a little bit tough. I know I was recently drifting away from God, and I am working on that as we speak! I know that with Him NOTHING is impossible! So I want to continue to keep striving to better myself for Him, and try to become a better man of God! He gives and He takes away, and when He does take away I want to be able to just let go and just let God.
Even though this may not be my season, I hope that the next one will be greater! There is so many things and people that I miss and want. But I know I need to focus on something greater than those things and people. Ahhh…I don’t even know at this moment. ha.

If you read this…I would love for you to pray for me!

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
-Jeremiah 29:11 

I love this song!

Jayme Dee

Gosh! Got to love the way Jayme Dee sings! I’m still in love with her voice, she is very talented!

Valentine’s Day.

Valentine’s Day, a day to show love to a significant other or family member. A time to give gifts and show as much love as you want/can.  Or also known for “The Saint Valentine’s Day massacre” Ha. But anyway…

Being a single man has it’s advantages.. A lot of down time to be one of them. Which allows me to just try and relax and catch up on some reading, writing music or just even some prayer. These past couple weeks I have had a lot of that, and it just made me feel better about myself. Also I’ve been working out more which has tons of effect! But today I spend valentine’s day alone..well sort of, ha. Yet it was filled with some fun stuff as well. To start off I did my morning workouts, and I came across this across this couple! They stopped me and asked me to take their picture, so I proceeded to. While I was doing that, I kindly asked them about their life and it amazed me how a couple so old can last that long. As morning became afternoon I was stuck at home doing nothing, did some reading and ate a little bit. Then I took my sister to the ER which was a little scary. But throughout the afternoon I see all these smiles on peoples faces, and I’m just loving it. Anyway..i need to get to the point of this blog lol.

Love is an amazing gift you guys. Get this:

He loved you & thought about you constantly, even before anyone knew your name.

^“13 For it was You who created my inward parts; You knit me together in my mother’s womb. ¹⁴ I will praise You because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made.Your works are wonderful, and I know this very well.¹⁵ My bones were not hidden from You when I was made in secret, when I was formed in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶ Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began.  ¹⁷ God, how difficult Your thoughts are for me to comprehend; how vast their sum is! ¹⁸If I counted them, they would outnumber the grains of sand; when I wake up, I am still with You.” ~ Psalm 139:13-18

He loves you so much that He know everything about you.

“But even the hairs of your head are all numbered.” ~ Matthew 10:30

He protects those who love Him.

¹⁴ “Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;
I will protect him, because he knows my name.
¹⁵ When he calls to me, I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will rescue him and honor him.
¹⁶ With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.” ~ Psalm 91:14-16

His love for you has no end.

 ”¹ Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good,
for his steadfast love endures forever.
² Give thanks to the God of gods,
for his steadfast love endures forever.
³ Give thanks to the Lord of lords,
for his steadfast love endures forever;

⁴ to him who alone does great wonders,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
⁵ to him who by understanding made the heavens,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
⁶ to him who spread out the earth above the waters,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
⁷ to him who made the great lights,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
⁸ the sun to rule over the day,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
⁹ the moon and stars to rule over the night,
for his steadfast love endures forever” ~ Psalm 136:1-9

Nothing will keep you from His love.

³⁸ For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, ³⁹ nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. ~ Romans 8:38-39

In love, He died to save you.

^“6 For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly.⁷ For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— ⁸ but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” ~ Romans 5:6-8

So on this Valentine’s day, know that He loves you more than you will understand.

     Although I did not have anyone to share this day with, I’m still loving the fact that I am loved conditionally and completely!

 

Update.

It has been nine days since I have posted about getting fit and into shape. I feel like things are going great for the time being. My daily routine is comfortable but I feel like it needs more intensity. It consists of:

- stretching (cause stretching is always important to prevent any injuries)
- 3.1 mile morning run/jog (around my neighborhood)
- weighted sprints ( I use a 30lb dumbbell in a backpack)
- Abdominal workout (russian twist, side plank, plank with reach, and bicycles. 15 reps each)
- Chest and Arms ( basic push ups and incline push ups, dumbbell curls.)
- P90x (selected workouts before bed. Ab ripper X, yoga and legs and backs )

That is basically what I have been doing every morning and night for the past nine days. Hope I see some more improvements soon.